Dark Whispers - 009 - Final Indulgence

Trigger Warning: this episode is a suicide note.

I've had this episode shelved for some time. I didn't think I would ever put it out. It was originally intended to be a goodbye episode should I ever succeed in killing myself.

I've decided to put it out anyway because I enjoy the music so much and it has such a deep personal meaning to me. So, if you're uncomfortable with the content or don't like depressing music, skip this episode; I'll have a regular episode out next week. This is by far the darkest episode of DW I've ever done.

If you're feeling suicidal or like a risk to yourself or others, please call the suicide hotline (1-800-273-8255), 911, or seek help at mental health facility or ER.

What bipolar depression looks like: tmp_3909-IMG_20160126_190309-579414119

And the damage it can do:

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  • DJ HellOnWheels on

    I've just started the set, and you've just finished talking
    All I can say is what you're doing with this set, what you're admitting to your audience, and your fellow DJS takes extraordinary strength and bravery. I can only hope that this episode may serve as a reminder that we are human, all too human, though we are our own Gods and Goddesses
    Hail DJ Lyra Shae!
    Hail Satan!


  • A listener on

    You're a brave woman. Thank you for doing this (and thank you for the staff to allowing you to post it).

    We're looking forward to next week's episode.


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